My dad I talk about the situation and came to agreement. Some I knew he would understand, I just was scared he wouldn't. And of course next time I should go straightly to him and not to my sister, because just because she is minute older then me, she doesn't know all.

All I can say is that this month will tell, should I quit the job or not. Well, I have pretty good guess I will, but let see now. And dad told me not worry about it as long after wards I keep looking other job and be more active in my shore.

But Yeah, I'm good now. I almost lost my will to continue anything. But let see now what I'll do, because it bit late now.