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On Friday our vacation ends T_T Tomorrow we'll be busy. I'm both glad that we return home, but I'm also sad, because my sister and I must look after grandma again. Makes me wanna go look for job, but it won't be fair for my sister to look after grandma alone. At least, now mom knows how hard it is, but I doubt nothing would change. -_- One of the reason I wish to get job, is also because that I get more money for next vacation. But once again, it wouldn't be fair to my sister.... awww if only I find part-time job, but I doubt that's possible. Is it wrong to wish things? I have to admit, in my own life I starting feel those wishes won't never come true :( I mean, they seem like that. There are many things I wish to do or have. For example: I wish to go Disneyland and my characters. I to become writer or work to design new animation series/movies I better stop before I get more depressed. And I'm already depressed by medical results we got today. Very depressing... I don't want
Aunt comes!
Our aunt is coming this Sunday. We have waited this over year. Our aunt (from mom's side) has never traveled this far and we thought she deserves little vacation after taking care Uma (that's how we called mom's mom, who passed away) and then looking after grandpa. We first planned that she comes May 2020, but then COVID came, so it got delayed. We tried look if we could move it and now we discovered she comes Sunday and leaves on September. I tell this because we will be busy to show her different places(safely)of Finland so, there won't be much replies or comments from me during that time.
Depressed once again
Although I spoke with my father about this, but I feel down. I think it's because I have two different reasons why I feel depressed. First one, was which I already spoke with father, about my weight issues, I have noticed certain diets don't work on me. I have noticed that stress and depression make me gain weight more. And today my sister said I'm motivated enough, well... I think she is partly right. So, my second reason for depression must be the reason. What it is? I'm not sure. Is it the same as usual to want get something which is impossible to get, because it's in Japan and I'm in Finland? Or is it that no one seem to notice my recent works? I think it's both. So, it seems I have three reasons on depression
Feeling down again
I know I have have these moments before, but they just seem to come over and over again. sometimes is because the sad news around the world or depression. I'm pretty sure, it's depression again. Why? Have you ever had the time, when you wish something, but it requires money and don't have it or you can't have it because it's only in certain country and you can't go there to get it. Or worse case it's sold out already. Well, I have that. And it bugs me a lot.
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I am in the very same boat right now, since 3 years. I had to sell lots of my personal stuff, my old computer which I build myself, my Smart TV, old Samsung phone (I got an used Huawei since then, and it it good), Apple products, my bed (Yes, I am sleeping on a mattress on the floor, and it is healthy. No back problems anymore), I had to sell shoes, boots (Fashion). I also got food from friends and so on.
Now, what I do is living from low money. I do get only a bit of my parents (Which is too difficult to talk about) and I am eating barely meat, most vegetables. I ask in the supermarket for bananas or anything to get in a lower price. It works, always. I go on evening, where the vegetables (Packed in bigger packages) are getting a lower price due one of them mostly nt eatable anymore, but the rest pretty fresh and normal.
I am barely cooking, eating raw vegetables. Lentils, Potatoes or chutneys are very very low in price, but very very healthy in a meal. With that, I barely need money for that. I have the luck, that I am allowed to set my own plants on a field near my house, for free. I can get most of herbs, chili or potatoes from that as well.
There are many, many many many possibilities someone can do. At first, before I go to others, I am trying of my own. Selling, doing myself and starting to learn, of how low money I can live, and that happy! I even send money to someone to america, even through I had barely Anything! Just for help. But seeing that most people dont have much, is always getting me to describe of what is doable and what not.
I wish you good luck and that you learn how to do things of your own to live without much money you have to get from someone (Sister, Family or whatever) until you get a job.
I am sure too, that if you search and ask, you can get a bit of money with helping old people with their dogs, children. There is ALWAYS someone, that would do that. Just work in the garden, for the dog/cat, kids and then you get some. I did shopping for older people in the neighbourhood, taking care of their garden, picking their fruits from their trees, cutting their trees, cleaning their house and and and
Now, what I do is living from low money. I do get only a bit of my parents (Which is too difficult to talk about) and I am eating barely meat, most vegetables. I ask in the supermarket for bananas or anything to get in a lower price. It works, always. I go on evening, where the vegetables (Packed in bigger packages) are getting a lower price due one of them mostly nt eatable anymore, but the rest pretty fresh and normal.
I am barely cooking, eating raw vegetables. Lentils, Potatoes or chutneys are very very low in price, but very very healthy in a meal. With that, I barely need money for that. I have the luck, that I am allowed to set my own plants on a field near my house, for free. I can get most of herbs, chili or potatoes from that as well.
There are many, many many many possibilities someone can do. At first, before I go to others, I am trying of my own. Selling, doing myself and starting to learn, of how low money I can live, and that happy! I even send money to someone to america, even through I had barely Anything! Just for help. But seeing that most people dont have much, is always getting me to describe of what is doable and what not.
I wish you good luck and that you learn how to do things of your own to live without much money you have to get from someone (Sister, Family or whatever) until you get a job.
I am sure too, that if you search and ask, you can get a bit of money with helping old people with their dogs, children. There is ALWAYS someone, that would do that. Just work in the garden, for the dog/cat, kids and then you get some. I did shopping for older people in the neighbourhood, taking care of their garden, picking their fruits from their trees, cutting their trees, cleaning their house and and and